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If you are a perfectly imperfect christian saved by Gods amazing grace than you are in the right place!
Recently I have been going through the hardest season of my life- my husband decided to leave me after trying for years to love me through my own hardships. Now- dont get me wrong this was not all my fault. I take full responsibility for all the times I messed up, all the times i said i would change or get help, but it takes THREE ( myself my husband and GOD) to truly have a marriage that is filled with joy and peace.
When you take GOD out of your marriage and try to do things yourself it never ends well. Ever.
But that is what we both have tried to do for the past few years. Do it on our own. Or as he would say I have GOD in my life- yes I know but you also didnt put GOD in our marriage together. We both tried to do it separately even with his being in our lives.
Thats one thing i think so many people tend to forget. You can have GOD in your life, your spouse can have him, but if you dont have him TOGETHER in your marriage as the HEAD OF YOUR MARRIAGE then it will never work. Period.
I am going to be as real, as raw and vulnerable as I can. I believe that is what my purpose from GOD is. To show others that through the brokenness of our own lives that GOD is good. Even in the most terrible storms. I am currently two weeks into this and am fighting every day for my marriage. I have given my battle to GOD to intervene and let him have control. Its the hardest thing I HAVE EVER done in my life. Because while we sit here and nothing is happening its so easy to think GOD has given up or is not working but HE IS. OH is he ever! You have to trust GODS timing and plan. And its gut wrenching when you know the person you love with all your heart is on the line.
But oh does GOD have a plan. I call him the waymaker because he truly will make a way even when there seems to be no way. Dont get me wrong when i say i fight for my marriage because i still believe we have to put in the work- by praying and going into GODs word every day. By asking for grace and peace. By praying over our spouse and our family. By not giving in even when we see no progress of GODS plan. Because the devil wants us to give up. He wants us to stop. He knows that right around the corner is GODS blessing and he does not want that.
I have struggled with purpose for awhile. And i have asked myself OVER AND OVER "Why does Satan want my marriage so bad?" until i realized that our brokenness and our hurt and all our issues in our marriage would be a HUGE testimony to others and the devil is scared and trying to keep that from happening. Our marriage being saved and healed and redeemed by GOD would show the world that GOD is good even when we are at our lowest point of despair. That it would show our kids that when they are struggling with whatever it is that when they think they have no hope- GOD! GOD is there to lean on. To show them that when we as flesh wanted to throw in the towel that by the grace and goodness of GOD he brought us back together to show how mighty he is that he can and will do anything for those that fully surrender to him.
I have hope. I dont know GODS plan. but i trust in him fully.
Stephanie Jones
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