There are no IFS with God

 One of the biggest things I know I struggle with is not fully trusting that with GOD all things are possible. I have the mentality as the father of the possessed son did in Mark Chapter 9 verses 14 to 29- he asked Jesus to heal his son IF it was possible.

Jesus replied "IF???" 

There are no ifs with him. None. It goes onto say that he healed boy and later on when he was alone with his disciples why they were not able to heal him- he replied that the only way was through prayer. 

Prayer is powerful. 

Read that again. And again. 

God loves us and wants to protect us and heal us. He wants us to be happy and joyful. Matthew 28:20 says 

"Be sure of this; I am with you always even to the end of age"

I have hit my knees so many times over the past few weeks. I have cried out to the Lord in so much pain. And it is said in the bible that he hears my cries and he will not abandon me. 

Now- when I first turned to God like a lot of us do it was because of the painful situation I had found myself in. And i wont lie and say i didnt try to bargain with God or tell him I would change etc. Thats what we do. We find ourselves in despair over whatever it is we are dealing with and turn to him to ask him what WE WANT and that he needs to grant it. 

Nope. Doesnt work that way. As much as we would like it to. After a few days and a lot of crying and hurting I had been sent a friend that has literally been God's blessing. I dont believe in coincidence like I stated. God does everything for his plan. I have not spoke to her in years. YEARS. And i wasnt going to even respond when she messaged me. I took a day and decided why not I can use all the prayers I can get. But her purpose was so much bigger than I ever knew. Gods plan put her in my life. And after i started talking to her I started praying differently. 

Then one morning about 4 am i couldnt sleep. I have a thing where ill get in the car and drive around listening to music. A song i have heard a hundred times growing up came onto my playlist. It was a song i knew by a christian artist- Steven Curtis Chapman. Called Dive. I really started hearing the lyrics. 

Take a leap of faith.
Im diving in 

I felt this immense peace and joy come over me and i felt like my whole heart and soul had been lifted up off my seat and into the heavens. I knew right then and there that God had been right there with me and had filled me with the Holy Spirit. I had an immediate change of everything. And started surrendering it all to him. All of it. 

I talk with him all through the day. Night. Whatever. Im not saying I am not hurting and I still am selfish in what I ask of him. And we talk just like im talking to you. I am human and will still stumble. But I know now how to stop and get in the word of God and talk to him when that happens. 

There are no IFS with God. He is the waymaker. Trust in him.

Stephanie Jones