God's timing is PERFECT. Period

 One of my struggles has been control. I have a very hard time letting go of things and not having control over it. Even the smallest things I needed some control. 

That was one of the biggest complaints Mike would tell me I had. And I argued with him about it all the time. I didnt see it. I couldnt see it. The past few months I have been letting go of control over a lot of things. But up until the past few weeks I never fully let go of my life and gave it to God.

I learned super fast that without God in control of my life I was going to fail. Every time. Which leads up to this- God's timing in everything is perfect. There are no if's, ands or buts about it. 

Last week I went back to church for the first time in awhile. I sat down and immediately was sad. Emotions flooded over me as I thought back to the first time Mike and I had went to that church together. We were late, arguing over who knows what, but we made it. We sat down and the pastor started his sermon and we looked at each other- we both nodded and smiled that yep we needed to be here this message was for us. 

So as we stood up to worship the first thing I saw was this couple in front of me. The man had his arm around what I was assuming was his wife and they were worshiping together. And the flood gates opened and I just started silently sobbing there while worshiping the Lord. I missed that! I wanted that again with my husband so bad it hurt. I thought back to all the times I had the chance to go to church with Mike but I didnt because i was tired, or i was upset because we had fought the night before, or a million other things. And i was so angry with myself for not allowing God to take control right the

n and there of my life in the past. So many times he had blessed me with the chance to change things and make our life better. And I had ignored it because I WAS IN CONTROL. 

No. I was never in control. I was building a bigger chaotic mess than i realized. 

Fast forward to this morning. I went back to church and there was that same couple sitting there waiting on the service to start. God nudged me to go tell them how much seeing them love each other had made me feel and what was going on. I introduced myself and told them the situation.

The words that came out of his mouth made me fill with joy and knew GODS TIMING was perfect. See him and his wife were at odds right then. They were going through something and both of them were mad or angry etc. But he said they werent giving up. And then he said GOD IS WORKING! For you to come over here on this very day and say what I said was a blessing to them. I was a blessing to them! I ended up sitting with them and talking to them after the service a bit.

See, God knew where I needed to be and where they needed to be. I was able to help them as they had helped me and we didnt even know we were. I gave God all the glory for this when we started to worship and sing praises. It made my whole day that God was using me in my pain and my hurt to be a blessing to someone else going through something as well. He works in mysterious ways. And once again his timing is PERFECT.

Through all this I have leaned on God and let him lead me and guide me. He is the way maker. I might not see what the behind the scenes plans are that he has prepared for me, but I know they are going to be so much bigger and better than anything I could ever imagine. He is protecting me and making a way for me in my life. And it fills me with joy that I am using my testimony for him to reach others. God is good all the time!

Stephanie Jones