There are a lot of things I have literally agonized over the past two months- one of those was my sweet fur kids that when I had to leave my home, I had to leave them as well. I didn't have a way to bring them all with me. Especially Winnie- my sweet, precious soul who is blind.
That cat is the meaning of the word innocent. All she cares about and all she wants is love. To be loved and to show love. She's the best thing that ever came along in kitten form. And I miss her as much as I miss my husband and kids.
But I was thinking about this the other night- if I had been able to take them and go to a place of my own where it was just us and all my stuff- would I have ever been able to truly rely on GOD to work in my life and HIS plans for me.
The answer is no. I probably wouldn't have. I would have been happy and content and just tried to do things on my own instead of leaning into our FATHER who has shown me so much over the past month about his goodness and his love.
I would never have realized how strong my voice is- and how I need to use it for HIS glory. I would have never realized how much I need GOD in my life on every single thing- even the little things.
GOD has a reason for everything that HE does. I know I wont be without them forever and I know that he will bring us back together when the time is right- just like how he will bring me back to a new creation in my marriage whenever HIS time is right. The wait is hard. It is one of the most painful things I have ever done.
But i just keep walking in faith with hope- Hebrews 11:1
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