Courage under Fire

 This past month has taught me a lot about A LOT of things. About myself, about my faith, my marriage etc. 

One of the most important lessons I have learned is you have to have courage under fire. You have to have courage to continue on your journey that God is leading you down a path that will be met with intense backlash and hate from people. It will be met with so much mockery from those that you never thought would say or do things that they are saying and doing! 

The courage to walk through the fire with God holding your hand no matter what happens around you. 

The courage to continue to stand up for what you believe in. What you know is right. What you know GOD is behind. Because you will get tested. A lot.

Faith and courage go hand in hand. You have to have FAITH in GOD that he is the way maker and he is working behind the scenes for the good of all things for those that obey him. And courage to continue to walk that path while the devil continues to try and hurt you with anything he knows how.

Ive been told so many times that i should :

1. move on

2. hes not good enough

3. God will bring you something better

4. if GODS plan is so great then why don't i do xyz ( this coming from my own husband the one I am praying for and loving through this trial) 

To answer all those- I have moved on. I have moved on to GODS plan and timing. Letting him take control and sitting back ( trying y'all if honest here lol) and being still while he moves and works. I have moved on to a hope for a new marriage that God will bring me something better within my spouse and within our marriage. Because that is what he wants. He wants to bring a new marriage in him with my spouse. And you are right he's not good enough because he is not God. 

I have learned something very valuable over the past month that even my own husband has said in the past " God is the only one that can make you happy" and its true. Mike is and will never be good enough to fill that spot. Only the Lord can have that number one spot. Mike comes second. He compliments me and makes me happy in the ways he can, but not anywhere near the ways the LORD can.

So yes all those things are true! 

I just choose to believe in the miracle worker , promise keeper, light in my darkness- GOD that he is making a way for my husband and I to come back together as a new marriage and new husband and wife of Christ. To be able to have a home that is filled with GOD and his name is honored there daily. To use our testimony to reach others about God's sweet grace, mercy and love in times of extreme doubt and distress. 

I choose to put my courage in this path and faith in Gods plan and timing.

No matte what fire i have to endure or walk through to get to the other side!

Stephanie Jones